Courtney Rants

Current mood: amused

thanks for all that support i really dont google myself hardly ever as for PR i have the best best best , but with no record he cant and shouldnt stamp out every dumb blog or nonsense bloid thing its alwyas bvest to never complaina and never explain and i guess i do a little of both while im in such a holding pattern but back back back to the studio the L:AST time weve just got one rocker to put on here and micko and me made up a magical little songa nde my nme writer friend has 2 guys for me to take these songs to both who uhnderstand the folk form – i could write ocean rain or i dunno an earlier u2 song in my sl;eep cos thats when and who i learned s ongwriting from Northern UK and Irish guys in the 80s is when i started l,earning how to write ive kept up with things pretty well – i mean in terms of guitar; Jack Whotes fairly innov ative and ive grown to understand Kid A and its relevance wich actually didnt grab me right away allthose years ago it came out-= Yeah ima good actor and i actually am a great dresser if they just would get off myass, but they dont, so i just ignore em, and wirth Panos pushing me into new directions sartorially it resonates with me musically the V and A Couture exhibition is Tuesday and my English fave Todd Lynn is tomorrow youllsee me in alot of his stuff it gives me a Bowie feeling when i wear him, as for the V and A im going with Ricardo who is runnin g/designing Givenchy and I getr ot weaR Couture again yummmy yummy – i know exactly the dress iw ant from the couture too- its a retrosp[ective3 of Couture – this is as the labour intensive work for the ( possible probable) cd cover is happening, then i have a few days to jam with my kids just for the hell of it, just jam i think as a band,
and then go to Paris an dthen back here and then back to the ballroom in la.
Well i wish i had had 6 kids but i havent done , it aint over yet , but itll have to wait til this cd tour and the film im doing are in the bag done and over – ive got a few years yet and that pictur epissed me off as itw ould anyone cos of what it al;l;uded to, im my Ob GYNs favourite patient, just genes i guess lotsa longevity and all the stiuff that goes with it- doenst meaN I wont get hit by a bus today but i wish i had had a brood, i feel i would have been far more protected- and if they turned out even half as good as my kid, id be in heaven,
great hair straight as a fabulois social life and turns down film after film and multi million dollar designer campaigns= good on her- my little genius- the proof is in the pudding is all i can say = i raised that kid not some random n annies, and despite what the bloids say or do i live my life accroding to strict and true convictions and values,

is it totally paranoid to think that acertain freak of nature
back of the herd who just hops rides on the rest of us has an obsessed freakishly homely and nasty as it gets PA who is hopelessly in love with her freak boss and somehow shes just connected with him to this endless line of nonsense from winehouse to shazza to over 60 paps and only one photo came out an dtheyve painted my mouth? Obsessed people get really wierd and do obsessive crazy things ive been and wil continue to be this year on the recieving end of this runts obsession with me and you betchya emit -all i do believe in instant karma
like you do THIS and BAM it hits ya, but i did nothing i should not have done and certainly i had no cynical motives whatsoever, itw as just as the scientlogists put it when you check somneones “stats” and theyc ome up “sp” sci or not
its common sense to avoid somneone into stuff that is over the common sense line and will end up with death, of someone. thats like 2 plus 2 equals 4 stuff i certainlydidnt say a word about winehouse and iwas on the beach in malibu less than a montha go and went up to the Osbourne house and theres nothing negeative between me and shazza til she pulled this nonsense out its like somneone is stirring up shit on purpose and it aint the karmic gods i can tellyou that, i know what imn talking about and whom .- but shed have to be on me 24/7 top pullthis line of crap followingme off- oh wait she has no life….so its tres possible.

woman ifyour reading this pleas etake the guy= run of!
f express your true feelings stop[ pretending to be a “PA” and leave us all alone, christ how many times do i have to say it? Shall i demon….. strate? instead of using tabloid connections to allude i have some std with retouching!~ if i did ,wich i dont ,theres only one filthy embarassing gutter ive been in where those things thrive love. ahhhh poor pa , in love with her er
“boss” is on just some krazed kooky kampaign to get me and its just harder and harder,coz what is there to get? no drugs, discreet sex and quietly finishing thsi rock n roll…. well theres not much to nail me with , so just create stuff and yes thank you i am a rockstar and i AM allowed to wear freaky contacts for dress up even if it looks wier dthe next day at l,east i had fun.
anyway im well looked after
couldnt be better looked asfter= cds ar epractical;ly obsolete so thsoe of us still playing now and in 2 years
yall should applaude cos we sure as fuck aint in it for the cash…….in 2 years cds willbe 8 track level old tech.

cant wait fort Todd Lynn tonight Again theguys a cutter and whata cutter, i do love a good cut, gracious living is something ive always needed and a good cut has alwaYs beena pure part of that, im gonna go for a run in the park i think now, if i can finb my horrible New Balance shoes talk about unglam.
But man they do function better than any Nike for running and exercising they just do tough on Nike, and its nice they send me cute stuff somnetimes butthe shoes for real working out? its New Balance sorry , they just bloody work.
Wonder what Covent Garden is like this early>? hmmm. spray on some bluebell and go stretch and then chant see ya all laters.

i may be paranopid about the crazy obsessed PA – but its a few too many conikidinks for me to think that someones not being obsessive and pruposely not creating chaos and it just means i need to chant longer and withmore cvonviction to bringthe force of the universe into recalibration and alignment and put others before my self and alleviate misery where i can and bring joy where i can.
and alwaYS create value in all that we all do right?

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i was so flattered today that Tony Wilson the Factory guy had in his last wishes a thinghe wanted me to do in October -= it was heart rendering as i only met him 3 times, If i have my paradigm polished an dthe absouloute release date i willcertainly do it and it was just beyond flattering,it was also funny.
oh my almost out of Bluebell dont have time to go to Liberty……damm i do love it here!

Bluebell! who thinks of that1 AHHH but the British! so gorge! Lapsang and a run and a chant and ill be right as rain ……AND IMPEnATRABLE cos the music always comes first Th ebest armour there is actually, nop tal;iusman is better than a true hearted good song.

xxx cl

i keep throwing ’The Secret”at the wall!
Current mood: dirty

ummm……dont explain and dont complain right?shut up take yr p[ain and play that guitar right? see the Hubris the lies the inanity and stay still nom atter what they call you
STAY UNCOMPROMISED INNOCENT AND NOT BITTER AND NEVER JADED

i loathe the dammed Secret i keeop reading it anyway. chant dammit. oh justtwhazt stop a bad negative thought? theres a LAw of the universe a LAW. and for an effect you must first make a cause not WISH for one!

every single time you/ me uses our power our talent for money for sex for “impressions” for yet another discussion on BRANDING we are WHORES.

I JUST WANT TO DO MY JOB I MAY HAVE GONE TO A C LUB DANCED WITH KATE AND WORN THE SAME PERFUME A MIST OF PEHAGLIONS BLUEBELL AND DANCED WITH LITTLE LILY AND HER BESPOKE HAT FROM HAYMARKET AND ASKED KELLY OZ WTF HER MOTHERS PROBLEM IS! HELLO ! IF SOMEONE GAVE MY MINOR CHILD DRUGS ID KICK THIER DAMMED ASS I WOULDNT USE SOME NONSENSE LIE THAT WAS GOING AROUND IN 2000 BTW COS MY BROTHER WROTE SOME EXPOSE AND IM TOOSCARED OF MADGE AND ELTON SO IM GONNA HITA SOFT TARGET no comment.

ended up in front of i dunno 100 paparaazzi with my band kids n we stayed up til 9 am just writing cos that i can do;
write and man oh man oh man oh man it is so fucking beautiful to be able to have people with a totally different perspectives and cultural backgrounds to lean on -ive been in soooo much pain soo hurt
had to stare at a box – knowing its a blessing that the irs audited me for some particulars years, and the reaLIty of pure evil -= hit me over the fucking head and i could not move i was ina shimmering death mist i had to move for a while get my ass over here play music get on some airplanes.
Things done to my child for spite, spite pure spite to a 9 yr old. to kurts sister who has never gone to college and just wants to have her little farm and her horses his mother who justw ants to garden an d make things pretty, and they killed my heart -they tried really really hard but karma doesnt stop anywehere it doersnt stop in Palm Springs or Maui or Los Angeles it keeps going like a bullet whizzing thru the air so they will get what is thiers.
i willnot go onstage unless im p[repared to leave my guts on the thing and this record comes out when its good and bloody ready and my personal problems wich are vast – well they are all there- like dirty diamonds on the record i havent edited a thing from my fucked up twisted heart wich i try like hell to fix by chanting everyday and when iwas laying all twisted up in bed afterthe profiler/psych/forensic tried to explainthe nature of pure evil -= after living rosemarys baby = seeing a credit card witha whacky name or brand new luxury car or the lamp i saw on portobello road that i could not afford – and it dissapearing …….noone will know can know what that gaslighting was like it drove me mad and itwas always designedx to.

My religion states that my environment is a direct consequecne of the causes that i make or have made perhaps in another lifetime,sonething went really wrong, somethings go really good too, but all i know is that all that matters is that right now i have bloody stumps for fingers cos i dont have a pick not one and all i need to do i NEED to do is let it go, is walk away, breathe it out,do this shoot with Panos ( fucking genius) Ypianis and Sam(fucking genius) Taylor Wood maybe go record demos at i dont kno wthe cheapo places
just toerag cos it got so hyped by white stripes= its easy to you know homage white stripes=i have one its just came i only have one chord tho- its an e minor duhhhh i think it needs an old strat and some folkie lyrics witha few double enterndres MAYBE and midran ge for days no bass no treble bu tthe vibrato way the hell up, like an old Curtis Mayfield record-

maybe illtake a dance claSS – no way will i ever do much more without a guitar cept hang up[side down on a pole, i dont mind being too fat or too thin or out of 100s of paparazzi shots they seem to retouch one or two to mak emy lips look all chapped, or maybe they were – i just know i have to write the NEVER COMPROMISING TRUTH. and stick with it and i have one dammed job and i have enough people that get me and care for me and ,love me. an dethats all that matters and karma doesnt stop in Maui or LA or LONDON or Gloucester or Belsize- but this photo is very work intensive, and then in our bluebelll mist last night my dance partrner tells me about how sam is doing alot of chinese s and m rope photos and im intrigued but i sketched what the shoten zenjin/ forces of the universe put
into myhead and gave me a vision, and im gonna get a tattoo over that shitty old angel = prellle the oldest fabric companyt in the world in Lyon makes a yard of fabric pre day has 250 years of sketches and loom patterns and they have one Thistle- le Thiste- its beautiful
i dunna think i have even a DROPLET of scottish in me but the pricks and thebeauty of thistles have been captivating me for the last three years, and although getting this dammed cheapassed tat removed took forever and bloody well HURT im ready to get Le Thiste on my back i want Le Thiste everything and bluebells and whomever lives in P{ortland or Eugene you get one thing ( othe rthan Myrtle on the the 101 wich is only grown in Israel outside of Florence Canon Beach Devils Punchbowl etc) in late March and Early April called Daphne, and my god i can smell it now its just makes me happy to recall the smell, smells are fun and i love them, smells and textures and building textiles, wich im gonna do this year id like to see next week or so what the French made for Spring = whyd oes fashion matter to music? i dont know……theres some connection and its fairly deep = i dont mean luxury brands with the perfume with its 1200% markup fantasy that allows someone whod rather have a luxury brand perfume than a song, sometime if something smells really really good or is truly beautififul; i like it too, i just dont like thinking about the factt hat 40,000 children die of starvation every single day and 750 million people live far far below the povertty line and since ww2 theres been 200 wars some stillbeing fought. notleast the war in america of convienice over indivuality- like anyone or more than anyone im frail fragile and fucking dainty as a porcelain teacup- a hothouse orchid a white lotus i cant grow unless i have the right conditions. evil isnt one of them.
truth, and my curiouisty about life and about all of you gets the best of me= i make a terrible celebrity i know this- but i do i do ido leave my guts on the stage and despite the commodiftication of my words and melodies and i dont kno wthata growly girl is to everyones taste and i dont care atall…..b ut i believe despite our fantastical humaness and ability for enlightenment and human revolution we are HERD ANIMALS.Yes we have leaders Innovators “early adapters” and all that bullshit -but we follow the leader….like gazelles.

but it comes down to texture to music sometimes to taste( Lauderay Chestnut Macaroon) or Smell ( Young Living White Angelica wich btw does have white lotus rooit oil and blue tansyamongst other rareities) same brand sandlewood, joy, red cedar, acquah vitahs larch. young living Myrhh and Galbamum Penhaglions Bluebell, Fracas , WQestwood Boudoir and Carnal Flower ) and clothing i went to coco le mer yesterday and i had to have a pair of about 1930 panties ….i hope we are not herd animals but more and more science says we are.
i have to go write a rock song now. enough of tastes and smells and textures gossipy nonsense and fishy subject changing almost to an overwhelming point.
sound is all that matters. all is word , all is sonic.allis TRUTH, and nothing else matters.

sketching escaPING face the music, come on
Current mood: confused

OKAY!
Time to get the hell out of this pity party fog= come on girl- get off yoru ass walk over o your guitar and finish those 2 acoustoc songs or fuck it wait for the day and plug in and finish th screamer on a n ice iold strat thru a verbey Fender= ive had a big 10 day pity party= got withou getting oo specific dragged into the recent past- thank god for the IRS, is all ill say and instead of the relief of being abvle to finally lay my burden down -
and finding Gods Army= the sort of thing that my juvenile “Authority Problem” has always created karma wise by me and figures of authority= from Agents to Bankers to District Attorneys= Gods Army- a billionare friend rcomended the secret army to me-= and golly amn i impressed -but right at hat momet about 1000 pages come sover and he violating humilaiting pillaginfg ferocity vracity venality malice deleting purchsing hiding lying wiring loaning gaslighting forging raging its all there = ive seen alot of it= but then a whole new dimension of it and a WHACK load of new data hit me inb my had BAM- so finally after days and days in a fog of sadness and desperate confusion – i had a talk with a Psychiatrist whod eals with people whove expirienced what i know about and yall dont bu someday you will= if my nam was jane Doe this is th cover of Time magazine stuff- some people may even laugh at me- think ts funny- but iut was a fated idea that i would not survive this pillaging- and the level of arrogance= is wild= who leaVES all this proof behind?
who does that?
anyway he word”victim” is not a word i am used to suing on myself- i dont accept victimhood-= and the Psych had to force me to see it= where it fits into my karmA IDont understand- the marginilasiion hu,iliatuon nams ive been called villification shame ive felt its all somehow atached to my own karma- and this Psych really had to talk me into stopping blaming myself- and accepting that i am a victim here- and ivebeen in adaze for daze so ive been escaping not through the guitar or lyrics= those parts of me dont feel pure as theyve been commodified in some way and i dont want them ever compromised= i never wanna be ware of the commodficitation of writing a s..
so i put allthoxseyears on movie sets and in the magicaL vast halls of Paramounts massive wardrobe dept and frpom my first wardrobe job n”Mommy Dearest”
i may nver have known fashion but i sure as shi know my mousseline= and studying the couture maerials used by Lacroix and wasted imho by these sub eila saab couteriers and studying my years of Collezion and Gaps and sketching skeching skeching = going to the Magic /Project convention inVegas i want my line to be ready
by Jan, and i wanto be able to provide a 300 dollar bra expience for 50 and o have he best pattern cutter ever- hes about 70- old Hollywood- worked and was traindd bNorrell and Bob Mackie!!! knows nothingabou fashion bu every drape and everything i steal from Westwood or Yohji – and everything i make up on my own0- in la we are famous fr haaving th WORST fabrics in the world an d never ever getting he new textiles- i have found 2 couture fabric stores in London and hey have wbsites, but man oh man thi stuff is so expensive-=
the way isketch is rather niave but the editor of a fashion bible saw them and loved them! old me this kind of “niave” sketching is what people are doing on purpose right now,
so im going to som e seminars cos ima seminar geek- cos i wanna use OrgaNIC matriaLS too- and god frobid i go to denim – yah we all need a new line of jeans NOT

i have my KINKY by bhysteric glamour and my my space friend miyo in tokyo just went into Hysteric and got me from the fabulius Nobu a ton of Hysertoc for me and my kids in my band- its so genius- so much cooler than a vintage band shirtuts just impossible tp get ouisd of tokyo= i also found a new young high end japanese designer suzuki Takayuki- HES AMAZING! i have to go to NYC for work on h record as im gojn g durong fashion week im going tp br honoured to hopefu;y mee Yohji yamamoto aq otal hero of mine with his Y3 show and also hopefully Marc Jacobs show-
lets all thankl Marc for bringing back the wide brim hat that had that JLO tipping pointthat fucked it up= ive kep tp my vow re Luxury Goods- i pruchased one good cloche hat- and its doesntt apply to exploraopry skincare am obsessd with the Leaf and Rusher line and the Scott Barnes makeup line wich os pretty amzongand he legacy of Kevyn ( bless!) Aucoin the Kevyn line- im still obsessed with my candles my d and l candles AND they have new fragrances buttheres a new com,pany thats amaxing too= Modern Alchemy = they have one “Salem” and “Ex Libris” really amazing notes hazel larch maple and parchmant and leather- not cheap but if i fdidnt have A fortune id def se what proenzer schoener(sic) designd fr arget and id gt one good cloche hat, and apair of cool suspenders.
no6 normal old man ons alhoughid get them, but maybe altrnate fabric= and id get a really cool coloured pair of long leathrer gloves my aubrgine nes from BVrunos italian gl;oves online are amazing deepdeep purple almost black=- iwant apairof pewter pones but ni luxe brands-
so ive been escaping watchingf old frnch and pre code womens movies and skechinfgmy ass off on beautiful things i would wear and fanasinsingabout how illgetthese new hajapnses meallic nylon light as a feather textiles and makibng the tights i wished existed- im terribl at drawing shoes and bags- feet im okay with
anyway theres a mix att the foot of my bed its been there a few days-= and ineed o wake my ass up inhe mornonga nd pur my eyes away andmy ears back on aqnd opuy th ep past behind me
its in th ebest possible hands they bneed a few documents= but if not theyll find em that sifgh of releif ivbeen waiting years for-= u can do i t now i just need to accept that someimes w e ARE victims iof horrible atrocities and its always karma but iy copuld be from another life= i dont know.
iv been racking my brib for allthos gowns pf m,ae wests racks and racks of them mostly belle epoque lily langtry huings 20 inch waists= all beaded and full of gold pearls and silver laces= amazing works of art=
just wantto make sure i bring you the Glam, the true Glam when im ready to do it-=
maybe wierder than whats oiut there maybe conservaive if you rfashion foreward-
but i promise ill never pu out anything i wouldnt be proud to wear that i havn wished for myself, and o wanna see how to use roganic fabrics with couture notions and beading- whatsth compromise rate?
anyway imtured of being in the past and need to come back to the present it just hurts so very much i took he bait and drank the kool aid and everyone watched = someday yall will knopw what im alking about= ive alluded to it for a long time butthese 1000 pages threatened my life force and sanity and sobriety and shit i almnost sarted ovreating too and my religious practice it overtook me with shame and regret and confusion as to thr naure of evil and how can humans be this evil= when theshrink knrw the facts and data he summed up that one of he leaders was psychotic and pon sociopahic= gee jusr like mommy and daddy= so what is it that atttraCts these people to me? im eccentric at worst, a little frosty sometimes…..hmmmmm….well okay if he says “victim” ill take it i jus feel stupid now i need to get on with the show,
xxxc

2 IMPORTANT QUESTIONS /”NEVER THE BRIDE”

HERES THE BIG QUESTIONS BEFORE THE BLOG -
1= WHAT MAKES YOU BUY A CD INSTEAD OF DOWNLOAD? WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU DOWNLOADED ? WHTA WAS THE LAST CD YOU BOUGHT? WHY?

2
WHAT SHOPS DO YOU SHOP AT AND WHAT BRANDS DO YOU LIKE OR WISH YOU COULD AFFORD TO LIKE? ANY YOU HATE?

Can we dispose of the awful word “blog” and return to :”post”
it just sounds so much more polite- new keyboard- if i focus real hard i bet i wont make more than 250 spelling errors.

so big resolution- spend money ONLY on work relateed things no makeup jewelry clothing.

NO LUXURY GOODS! thats my vow – music and creativity and back into the busines sof music and NEVER THE BRIDE only. NO MORE OBSCURE SKINCARE!
( oh hey that infomercial for Dermacia? that stuff rocks! im obsessed! its really good!)

Alot of people have been asking ma about me and Clare La Fayes design brand “Never The Bride” Esp since the Harpers piece came out ESPECIALLY
people who rep people in Japan- imtrying so hard to decide bnetween the companies
some carry one or more of my favourite designers and friends- its a very compex decision- But our look book is amazing – they came out beautuful so far these dresses
we need to start diffusing, its a great innovative thing – but far too expesnive abn dtime consuming to do full time maybe always do a few a year…
to us ethese really rare and precious one of a kind victorian to teens to 20s beading fabrics but now we need to
get to the next level , i just am so confused about Japan, we have an entir eLine DESIGNED AND ready to make but we have to get my pattern Cutter and the best fabrics-= this is not a quick buck to me its art its been with me my whole
life cutting and drawing clothes always dresses l.ingeries shoes and bags
Clare went to Otis, i noticed her way back when seraching the net for deconstructed cool clothes as part of a company in Portland Ore called “Hovercraft” i brought her down to make clothes for an upcoming tour that was never to be, but she came back , iwas in a store newly opened- for about one shining moment this store had the coolest stock in LA ( LA is for all the costumes- remember my first film i worked on was “Mommy Dearest” and Oh. My the stories i could tell, but i did learn who the best patter n makers were who made the handmade lace still, who beaded those crazy 80s Bob Mackie gowns by hand- i knew allthe stock at Paramount until they sold tot he two rental houses Palace where i worked bruefly and WEstern, all the lame and the lace made of solid gold i learned alot about long long fittings juyst to get a dart in the right pl;ace from my mentor Bernadene- she didnt know a thing about FASHION in the sense of what peopel were wearing this season , and i hope to see her soon actually , she certainly still doesnt
but if i drew it , it got made, its how Rick Owens made his first sweater I was gonna do a sci fi film on a dare from Paul Thomas Anderson and one of the prersidents of New Line , Mike, it was to be set on mars and be about grisly Ghosts who ate people,
the stunts were great fun i found a sequence in Leathal Weapon 1 thats like a dance i still want to do it someday if i ever do an action movie- but it was alla bout this dammed sweater= its so hard to get stuff thats any good here inb la we have ONE fabric store and hate to say it but it truly sucks, Rick Owens took off because he was monochromatic , obsessed with felt, wool and ribbing and chiffon, he remains after Marc Jacobs welle evenly i suppose my favourite designer- Rick and me and Bern decided that this character was the great great grandaughtrer of Snake Pl;iskin Kurt Russells character in was it Escape From New York or something? and it was 180 years from the current day and she was stuck on mars in her army un iform and it was allfucked up, i trie dthat sweater on every three days. Rick put a stitch here and one there , the man is a true artist, but hed have to drive all the way out to Torrance to the only knitwear factory in the area for one dammed sweater- finally itdawned on me- thatthis environment this script was really really not for me-= dontwantot get too into it Ice Cube could afford tod o this sci fi film, i was doing it to be ironic with my hip groovy friends and one doesnt doa film to be ir.. man i was such a jerky kid back then – its a real movie with real money and time and althoiugh iwas supprresing alot of hysteria at the way the monsters looked etc- something happened and i hurt my foot very badly – i tbhink i kickboxed a tree too hard- and iwas outta there- meanwhile Rick was stuck with this silvery sweater from 180 years in the future- he made a load of them and put them in his collection – now whenever isee Rick doing textiles – hes moved along way since he and his partner lived in an office off Hollywood blvd all Gehry like but spookier exposed plumbing on purpose the wallas covered in black felt- his exquisite work room – where it was all the Rick usual colous taupe. Oyster, black and lots of leather glove leather different types pf grained leather- even though hes a big fancy desogner in Paris and Italy now i stillthink of him somewhere on thebanks of the Sienne scrubbing his silk cotton cashmere mystery blend down with a rock….his fabrics are still so outragously wonderful hes the minimal sid eof me)
anyway this girl has rtecieved a settlement in a lawsuit and shed opened an amazing boutique- it had all new , all amazing ideas designers and the first thing i bought was a Clare La Faye skirt , made from 40s girdle peach fabric( i collect it tons of it ironically i just saw a oh 1941 ish strapless bra at Coco La Mer in London for about 400 bucks – grab that stuff! its stillcheap and noone knows how c ool it can be remade!
the skirt was oddly familair ( Clare had come to my house when itw as stilldecorated by Dr Phil and i had also gone nuts and painted everything Hydrangea so imagine if you willa kitchen with massive carrots, turnips, potatoes on trhe wallpaper and matching drapes-= the plan was to turn this BH house aroubnd i was heavily into Sue Et Mar ( still am) get Prelle fabrics from Lyon and customise a wrought iron stairc ase and ewonderful chandliers- etc= unfotunately it was right when i started cdiscoveringtahthere was something horribly HORRIBLY wrong with the financial situation in our lives, i lived about 2 blocks from the BHPD, they were of no help whatsover, i dontthnk they like freaks living on that side of Sunset,
anyway this was a while later= not out of the woods yet later but getting there later-
and the skirt had an amazing placket and corset and was up to the top rib and had a crepey chiffon hanging over it with a big pink bow and Clares endearing touch of no money and no owrkers and handsewing wich i have urged her/us to keep , i think it looksw cooler than exoesnive slip ruffles,cheapassed Pennys slips,. the ruffles , 80s at best but probably new- she has this on all her ruffled garments these polyester “Barbie Lingerie” ruching= i pruchasded thatr skirt anbd became a fan – although very very different from Rick ( she has her own website for her line www.ClareLaFaye.com ive not been so i dont know how well the dresses show)
i do think she is the best designer to come out of LA since Rick Owens who was the best designer to come out of LA ever- there was a boutiuque back in the 60s/70s called Hollys Harp and i sued to collect stuff- its was like LAs version of Topanga Hippie Biba-So for years ive been collecting Vintage and Victorian and Edwardian and teens and 20s and 30s dresses and shreds of dresses and just textiles and notions and we started collabartaing on these dresses- on design elements- that lon g nutty blog the other night where if you got that far i got to the part about using Lapis Lazuli , Rubies, Jasper,Onyx ,Rutilated Crystal pieces, i do believ these crystsaLS EMIT A CERTAIN type of energy and bring forces into your life-
i just do-= nothing is inert- and i hand out alot of the time at a plac eon la called crystalarium looking for rare crytsals that work on differntthinsg like Obsidian absirbs negative energy- i have felt it, so to get a good connectiuon fo rthe rarest of stones and use them in the beading or just a s a signature, freshwater pearls and moonstone hanging down…
for as much as im 100% Buddhist both Clare and myself were raised in Eugene and could read your Zodiac chart before “Goodnight , Moon” those hippies did alot of stupid shit, and Eugene was acultural crazy mix of first poor then rich hippies and alot of trailer homes= – i no longer use astrology at all= as a Buddhist o finally read a book wich really helped me figure out the tenents of Nichiren Buddhism, and we do not believ in ghosts, souls or astrology, this isnt a religious seminar so illtellyou some other blog=hate that wiord can we return to the word “post” p[lease>? thanks. some other POST.
inany case – i saw more and more of herdresses and just started getting them then we became chums and i started giving and acquring her very expensive(studying alot of designers- very obscure ones and Yohji too and really keeping up on our WWD and having zero interest in producing a plastic bag with an acronym on it and god bless those girls theyve always been so great to me but Pam and Gillain are making sick sick money from Juicy now, butr if im gonna make clothes they are going to be special and crazy beautiful. art was what i saw at the couture and if it cant bethat beautiful and my hearts not in it i wouldnt have anythingto do with it! for now its a passiobn thingthats been going in abvout a year slowly nbo prssur emakingthes epieces then one wa sin Grazia, and i wore one to a party, they are exquisxite and the res a heavy Westwood infliuence rught now- lotsa whalebone and corsets and squishy boobies-= and draoped ruching- but were going into some more sophistiocated places/
Initially all these pieces are one offs- there will be no gifting= its so hard to get perfect shirring and Victorian Whites and then Clare makes a studded punk belt= i havent been wearing them – even though theyre very “me” im looking for a different vibe for
what i wear onstage ……..a,thoough Pato and Bethia gravited strsaightto the N ever the Bride stuff – they never quite wore them .. and weve had to make things much smaller- and Clares interest in sleeves has grown and i think i finally found my muse t.. the designer who does draping folding modern beuatifully ( OTHER THAN MARC AND A NEW JAPANESE DESOGNER FOUND THIS SEASON_
im also totally wierdly obsessed with the last Valentino collection by Valentino= there are so many classic peices in it and too much fur but my stylist is going ot Milan to see what he can nab again its not just fabrics LA is terrible for bit were a n outpost for “this season ” whatever the hell that means- (IM QUITE upset=- Mr Lagerfeld was kind enough to give me this straw boater in raffia, the exact hat Mlle wore and i sufferede it ebibng called a farm hat and it being laughed at by bloggy bloid voids- i was told people were saying u was wearing a “ridiuclous” hat abnd a “farmers” hat umm it was a couture Chanel hat? and theres a few that were made. but he did produce them
to replace it would be just deadly id rathe rput my money into our business I HAVEVOWED IN FACT!@..
i have clothes, ALin any case Clare is going to the midwest to a textile show and were going to make about 100 pieces max of these- tehres only 4 stores in the world that sell in this price range in coktail length, and so all night ive been working on songs and then sketching and then writing lyrics and then reading and etc,
its been a very long day, inany case- we are finding out aboutthese japanese terxtil emills that have the best new fabrics and the best textiles, and we need to put together a business plan and etc for starting to get out of the 4 stores by mnaking opatterns wich are original with fabrics that can be replicated – and im looking for my older Hollywood crew people from my malibu teens- they also were at the house for the Hydrangea phase- im SOOOOO happy i didnt go on that tour or wearthose crazy costumes- i think i designed them on mars, i was really really into Manga then and Pirncess ai and sendingAI Kawazawa my designs and Lolita Goth wich ublesw syou getthe exact right pieces looks so ridiuclous on a geijein,
but there are some pieces of Gothic Lolita stuff that could be cool, and the cellist Yuiko wears it and i know thats what i wanted but i wouldve hired her anyway becasue of her impeccable cfredentials and the fact that she played in a quartet that did Slayer and Pantera covers.
Also i LOVE Hysteric Glamour out of Tokyo and im finally getting some this week! They tried to have a PR firm here but 2 stores knew who they were and carried about 1 piece apiece- Nobuki is the owner designers name and he is such a genius yes its tsghirst and jeans and astriturf and ashtrays- and roadie satin jackets- but its pretty amazing and his sweaters are to die for=
Butthe best jeans EVER are the Kinky jeans by Hysteric- there is no better jean- not an old 501 not a new Tsubi or sass and bide- these jeans are percfect in eevry way i
in any case we do know where were goign to sell in a casual sort of way in London Paris and LA and NY its Japan that im having thgehardest time with[= four companies have called about liscensing NEVER THE BRIDE and prodcuing the line in JaPAn and i cannot make up my mind wich company to go with!
so many liscening companies- its so easy to get lost were really interested in eventually addinga lot of amazing lingerie so everyone can own a 300 dollar bra for 65 bucks, i am an avid vintage and just gorgous lingerie collector= i have shoes that match corsets, so learning about how to navigatethe Japanese fashion world is
alot of work= and i only have a bit of time for this presently.
Honestly this one song it seems like it may actaullty bethe last a clump of four arrived-
it needs about 1000 words and they all have to be good,
its a sorta jack white homage- bluesy thru a fernder twin on an old strat no pedals all midrange-=

so thats me-= i have a question for YOU-=
what was tha last CD you downloaded and what wa sthe last cd you BOUGHT and why?
this is areally crucial question co si cannot figur eit out( i keeop thinkinfg its the art- ande then io keep wondering how much litle felt or canvas tchitkes in keeping with the artwork would be to stick in each cd and the mind boggles)

could you please explain to me what compels you to purchase a cd?
i do it cos im old and cos ipods although a cool thing for trips inthe car and shit
dont have the lyrics and the artwork -= i dubnno maybe cos im not on facebook( yet) or xanga@(yet)

do you buy cds and download? is THAT common?
soyou hbave bothf ormats?
do you buy a cd when youve heard it and like most every song?
doyou tebnd to download a few songs and iof there stuff you think is filler leave it?

i just know how insanely hard weve worked are still workinga nd will be working til the day this comes out in Jan and they have some evil empire math about downloading
eg we dont yet even get our “royalty” and they ar estillcallinbgd ownloading”:promotion”
okay ill c heck back here and see what yall have to say and i kno wthw dreses are outragously expenisve but thats just for NOW, so we can make bnack the money i sp[entya nd put oit bacdk ib the bysiness and get to the actual Line, and get differnt opattrns cut and make a full on collection , dresses and lingerie and then we have both been worjking our asses off to think of THE bag-= THE bag wed both lik ethe most- ultimATE;ly brands dont matter but id really like to hear youyr feedback onthe two basicd questions atthe top- iftheres a shop you like= and brands your into= like i like Sea Breeze, and Proactive for zits and i dsobnt but cklogthes there anymore but i like home good s from Anthroplogie- sort of and Hiot Topic fopr sure – and Ameoba records or any indie record store- thats me=- american apparel boy shorts abnd i cant stand victorias secrets padded bras- thats kinda what iw anna know about you, that way i dont have to go to your profiles each one and id like to know what you would get iof you could wiethe rits a car a couch a gown a operfume real estate in Washington?

WHY DO YOU BUY A CD INSTEAD OF D OWNLOAD

WHAT BRAN DS AND STORES DO YOU LIKE OR WISH YOU COULD LIKE? wich do ytou dislike?
(example i l,ove Anthroplogies bedding , Victorias secrets bras really bug me, i alway shave fun at Hot Topic, i like Amazon and Net – A _POrter.com)

WHAT BRANDS AND STUFF AND STORES DO YOU NOT LIKE OR THINGS FROM THE BRAND /STORE?

illanswetr far more extensicvey about my fave things and stuff but youtell me first!

i appreciat eyou all goving me the feedback it means alot to me and to everyone on thso record to know you = yopu [retty mnuch kno wme=
this is all priovat eshit its not like somne data farm quesztion ist just to get a vibe out there= and the cd questiion ios cos obviously we put alot opf effort into making tghem so wed like to know what compels tyou to buy one, if you have to hear oit forst dlownloa dot forst keep a few songs downloadsed etc?

so much appreciated for your time

love love

Court

it appears to be entitled leading man.
the first line is
i am not looking into the eyes of a leading man.
i had one in rehabv ha went on and on calle d “the protection of men” but it felt too bloated. too stetamenty. and he nw e have he unheard goo din bed …tell me tell me why the evil peopel are so very good in bed? its such a great siong but damm we just never could get it appropriate for THIS record LP never love dit fekl it wss too sixties punk, too Kinsky., but mn its funny as fuck. and then switches to this morbid other topic.

are you kidding? 3 days? we took on eHALF of one day off in abouyt month of living together t my houxse and working 12 -14 hours a day aevery single day. as for Monio hey im just not in the mnood for anything inff that record rt noew it sold all of nothing so your one of a tiny monoprity. its dammed good song and yes Stu could kill it= far better than it was ever recortdeed- but im jkust not in that space- Mickop has been playing professionally sinc ethe age of 4 in his family Celtic an dblues band in Ireland, and when he brings it his ophrasing has on one occZsion CAUSED me to sob, he has excellent timing and orhasing he also drinks fuck too m,uch beer wich eh needs to work on becaus eits not the cirrohis s yet at 20 it sthe fact that he WILL get fat and he refuses to accept this, ihad everyone see a dr, its just ethical esp ewehn yoy rgetting NHS people, on apurely objective lvel thi sband kicks abny formation of Hols ass by a long ;omng shot in terms of rendering- in terms of copmpsition id id most of that anyway and Pfaff was a very good bassist, and Erlandson did good overdubs and ha a great tone, he was tone obsezssed and it did pay off to a point was also totally annoying irecall playinga 20 minute set opening for someone in the van days and he switahcethe guitar out for diff tunings n dpedLS i believe this was halloween night so mbny times in a few minute si finally kicked him ion the butt, the girls an dLiam ewgho has a gorgeois high voice dont yet sing so much because they need more xzeasoning and noone has Melissas controlled high voice, pato has a deep voic e like mine znd bethia needs rot learn a little more about rock n rol;l thr concept the global view – shes gopt a good hippy heart and has it in her its her c hoice i dont know how cut out she actuyally is she sgonna hve to step up little- but i lik eteh sociual dynamic of us all in tyhis together and were bringing our cellist from tokyop by next time you see us so that wil add another dynamic asd well-= we rehrsaed liek sons of bitches hrd hard hard an dlong long l;ong,- aha i found out today i might we might have a shiot t opening for well a very mnassive much more massive than me band but its a long assed wy off, although ibleive it will occur and be very fun and its noone ive ever openbed for bnefore bit not even a hint as its not in anuy way confirmed just inferred, anyway good obnservations! gla di had an answer or two for you!

singke sin uk with amagzine i think my spinsir i n this record is taliing about serious push stiff liek billboards its reather exciting. uop there wuth the bras and the jeans! but he belives in t hsi record more than “anythung else in 20 years”: so its allvery exciting and its an old 90s budget but baby i cannot do low budge i just cant i can do medium budge evenb as long as there smovie s on demand room dervice and some good books 180 days oi vey i beetr be in peak heaklth and ive nevrtourned this thin, ive aklays been 145-150 for touring but iu like the thin thiung, im very happy with nmy dentist by the way im not gonnahave to get any surgery i dontthink thabnk god i hate it, was platng with reds cos i cant imnagine wearing armani bff with gloss forlife! i get ina red move dammit, and my lovely kevyn i gave to pato 70 bucks fo rthat shit i think im taking uit bvack my dentints is a genius. and i love having an older guy sponsor mad eof money who loves this record mor ethan anytging

both f its jam the lyrics are second on a never go hingry song the lyrics were there first and siusnet marquis a mess ton of lyrics were there forst, pch the musoc wa sthere after i thought o fthe title an dthen the lyrics the who workld is in my hands was a collusion ,the one on the skin was just me scatting but i dont know how to iumporve it i think Linda need s to hit it shes just so busy it sabout gettinbg her time nobodies daughter was very Linda but then Damon came up with the amzing keyboard part an dthey did the thre epart harmomnies whn i asnt arpiund , loserdust billy encpouraged me to keep as i was throwing it out an dhe said :”thats a cute little punk song dont get rid of that” umm the homework assiugnement i presently have from LP{ is a nevr go hungry type thing= for onc ein you rlife was band aroubd campfire song- all the guys lp and me-and literally those lyrics were the lyrics and they just stayed there and hap[py ending story was music first, samantha has samantha ansd vowel sounds on the verses, linda wrote that amzing littel bridge thing, Billy N me worte the rest, malibue i was trying to figur eout exactly waht happend there i know Billy arrnaged it but i know i hd most of the riffs written and alot of lyriocs hes the one who md eit more comple though= the trick woth hom os to get it and take it and make it your own, cod he will go to the “wall” in the pink floyd sense an dyoull be without a chorus but man whenb your in the room with the guy and hes no t thinking an dits not fo rhim, its for me, its so much better, i have a wuestion? be honest. how is zeitgeist? ryan will kill me ive inly listend to the cribs cd once and im scared to listen to zeitgeisti just recall tow thanksgivings ago billy in the living rm with me lisa an dneil and singing to this eight rack recording and it was so unfettered and clean and had lotsa choruses and stuff and i thou
h”wow the kids got a shot IF he has a good producer and doesnt overthink” so tell me what you think? even uf you hate it ill stay loyal to him. cos he has saved my life twice and he s there when allthe lights are out man, we just have thes ewerd years off, but ui will wnot allo wthis to digress ibnto anything othe rthan positive between him and me given that can is ee hinest answers polease ? specific to songs and stiuff>? why have yo ubought it ? why havent you? this isnt a smashing pumpkins/billy forum feel free to spek your truth also anothe rquestion how is reznors latest effort? the one bvefore was a bit of a bore, but i heard thos ones a bit better, someone even said alot better. someone said a bit , someone said ehhhh who cares. whaqt mkes you buy a cd instea dof download? the art? wanting it in mor ethan one format? why do kids who can download buy linkin park cds? those guys are near my age so im really curious how did linkin park emerge as diude kid leader band – i know “demo——cs” isd a areally dirty word but ell me this does no t fascinate you
35% of linkins buyers ( of cd) are feamale their shop fo choice is Clares wich by the way is ain idd story too they do no t advertise and they mke a massive massive profit selling 19cebnt made in twiam glittering decorus objects for i used to think buck buit someone shcooled and said “No try 20 bucks” 20 dollar prcepint! wow, tell me that does not fascinate you in some odd strabge way.
shit sometiem si love “demo//////cs” it give syou real insight- the coke people have the really scartshit isnt tht who makes moutanin dew i told em id consider doin th emountain dew ad if i go t a bunch of”demo””’s” and you know what mnountaibn dew drinkers THEN were ten time slikelier to commit suicide do extreme sports take narcotics and listen to muci by dissafected women. evil shit these demos. in the worng handf s just a manioulative tool. i love that linkin stat an dthey didnt even really try, thehappen to be nicer guyys than the othe rnu metal guys and write or eote good melodies compared to limp bizket well way better than that byt from that era- this record has 5 ballds in it wich flips me out. then theres MCR , whod od 2 nights at wembley i listend…. i love love love gerard. whats up with that stufff though? i loved the helena video and song, but d pnt think i quite grasp…..well ill keep my opinions to myself ive answrred yourt question now answeer mnone . did any of you purchasde icky thump on cd? did icl ythuno do well? that band sells about a million right? is it good? i thin kelphant is good.
why didnt you download is what om reaqllya sking when you buy a cd why do you buy it ? everyone that bought that linkin park cd couldve downloaded it and my throy is amybe they did but lso wanted it on nother format? downloading sucks for us we get nada from it. so somehow the artwrok on a small jewl box must be complelling im thinking canvas and felt things….you know little prizes, i also thinbk igot a very risky but very cool acover art idea, out of my four ideas, a few are nmor evideops than anything. miss world type videos wich btw i like mor ethan violet i basically directe dboth although sophie mueller is great and ha that great dp. but i loke directing and until durt put hids naqme on vidoe if you dorcted your own ( i kidna well idid kick the celeb skin dorector off the set as she went int o massive obertimne abnd ididbnt shoo tit in clour so confident was i that io was gonna gert thios technocolour thing down) but still ist nice to be directed .
but i do like thinkong uop th eideas myself unless its david cos hes fucking genius and i wanna collabarte with him fo rthe first two vodeos, if i could id do allthe videos with him, he knows hos shot he knows alot npr ethan ,e wich i always enjoy and he works his ass off iu also happen to know whqat he doesn t like behaviour wise what none of us like actually ego manicas crazy bitc h ass behaviour on his set, iuve left that way behind so im looking fwd to this expirience, he dressd me the othe rnoght iw as gonna wer a mqceeuun vest and a pair of high waisted balck shorts an dhesws like “get bakc in the closet thats so kate moss two years ago= i think the shorts were actually hers!” and get that on NOW! thin whit eduke ! NOw~! he came ot reharsal and put liam in the spot light part when re liam tje leop scomes aliev and loves every second of it- that kid is like amiracle baby= ya didnt think he was gonna make it and then he cscooped us all, hes a pleasrue andf a deloight and la doesnt freak him out that kids a rockstar = its like your own children and you can t have favourites and id o nto everu once in a while i jiust get misty ve rone or the other also nopte to self Pato you cant wear heel s anymore and we love wash other but we look too tall and short next to wahc other i know she needs to be near stu but david insisted art rrehearsal abnd after the show, she needs to wear flats so she can focus on playing and she needs to stand at the emnd she stil with mick o and with stu if the stage is huge then stay tghe same. i jsut thin kdavids right we look too different sizer wise and dont say who cares this is show business!
hasd anyone npoticed patos BOD by the way OMG! her waist is like 18 inches, she wears a size 0 nd iuhaventr seen boobs lkk ethat sinc ewell for long time! and i live how shell take a chance on any clothes on anything and be as weird and stuctural as pissibvle an dshde got chosen cos she wa steh BEST BASSIST i didnt even note how hot and wocked she is. and bethia i liked her totally y shes a freak like me and a lobner abnd maybe she doesnt really wanna be a rockstar. im not quite sure but i did lobve ho wmy trendy London friends couldnt stand her- energetically and were actually tather wicked, it mad eme like her more- cos i knew America would love herand mnan oh man did they ever all the studio execs were dying over here an dthen i dripped the “c” bomb Cambrige for Sanskirt even an dtehy were basically frithing at the mouth,and stu as we know i believ to be perfect in the peak of healtha nd truly truly gifted and he has such a mellow lovely dispositionan dplays like THAT, and then my baby Micko , th eguy needs to show 3up fo rhomself, cos hes go t the kid of chops you dont get often ehatever stormenting him we need to get to the bottom of becaus ei need him to shoe up for himself- hes up theere in the savant sweeptsakes he hasnt put th etime in like Billy sdespite playong professionbally sinc ethe age of four in his fsmily band he ha sye tto find a tone bu ti mean Peter Buck Kurt Billy savant good potential is there he just need s to rehearse even harder and get out of hid oen style a little just to try new things an dtak ethe Celtic style an dfuck eith it and reinevnet it so its coming from him like a ray of light.

anyway thats my band, i meess em an d need em back soon b ut oatience, i got alotta stuff to prep fp rthem, thney will be working theor assee off sonne enough so i wanna sell actual cds what mnakes uy them thats my question, and my secobndary question is that are there choruses on zeitgeist?
does artworkl make you buy cds?do big billboards in Times Square?

hang doqwn you rhed john dooley
frewell angelina
paint it black
little recd rooster
strawberry filds ( haaard)
boots of spanish leather
its all over now baby blue
sisters of mercy( weird tuningit iook me momnths)
dirt ( iggy stooges)
paranouid- sabb
selects fro m john lee hooker robert johnson and lomax fierld blues recording s in d tunings.
etc

(Note: this post is a response to a question asked about first songs learned on guitar)

i like the vocals bit LL THE VOCALS are gonan sound 50-75% better wehn the mix is done, dramaticallty these vox were just recorded in my ballroom witha shitty little mic of peteys, and the lyrics blow imho an dteh drums are faux buit for some reason when we attempedt it wout LINDA it got worse with real drums and whatnot, ireally am quite codependendt in that woman nd shes got insane platinum ears and she is a rock( and a roll) and i think it sjust needs to be less sssssss ssl spiunding i thinbk its good bones and wht yoru resposnign to positivek,y ixz great but theres a bit too much midrnge no treble for me in terms io an sss sound that pro tools gives ione its slick no doubt liek cskin was slick,when we dsay “rw: ewe mean less slick sounding than this although ye steh creamy vocals are fin to indulge in, and id liek to ekp t teh vocals creamuy.;
i gotta stay off the net i feel like ive been on thi sthing for days and im getting in allthese news blogs and shit as much as i liek engaging with yall its just not worth the trouble but m,ybe if i just keeo eevrything ot th emusic itll be okay to nswer some quwestions tc and when willtehy get over my spelling? i dont read the blogs jus the headline s but uits silly hiw much emohasis thay all put n my spellin g….anyway bacl gto the song we dod appraoch this ibn a proper studio with real drumsd an di didnt like the resultso back to the demo- and then teh kids an dme approached it from this demo i THINK maybe not maybe we apporache dit from the “mix” we got and not to be cranky but i was nt happy with taht at all- it needs Lindafication prticualrly in teh bridge an di realllyr eally like where teh lyrics are now i think teh demo lyrics re lazy wellthey are infactlazy i didnt wrote one down ots just waht i scatted in that moment, maybe that has value but im a little but of an overthinker about lyrics however simple they my appaer to you they ar ethought through evbery one i do like how3 yall picke dup in the last line of the last verse of never go hungry re “to be a man”that miught be my favourite lyric ever ive written just becaus eits so fucking simople hinest an dpathetically true, that theres now ay out of hell unelss you reslise thATR ITs a mans world and behave liek a man. im glad yall bnoticed its so dramatically simple on purpose o didnt think anyone would get it, ihave a good skill set for lyrics.ND WHEN YOYU HAVE A GOOD skill set its fun to restain oneself from goign all clever clever or toot hematic although theres is defintily atheme to this record liek teh others ( except the ine i ignore presently liek a chidl im estarnaged from id ont talk to it an dit doednt talk to me) ths oen has a theme that is carrie dthroughout every songa nds its a full story.in ckin i think the art work gave it waway and i think the artwork needs o be stellr for this. and i have so many ideas going to my head one is insanely simple and really really dangerous, but i like risk.