Courtney Rants

b ytht o mean in films AN DMAGs im well lit and look very pretty because im well ot an dbeing handled by the great ohotgraphers, and when i do my covers startibg in Nov itll be lovely looking but i need to let go of this addiction to perfecxtion woch i did a long time ago om no tsuppose dto look beatifully perfect i neever said i was a virgin or played possum or cted liek sweetheart i came in daclaring my outside of society status and weirdluy inm somehow the most insidery outsider possible. because i am and alway swull be even if becoem Oprah marginlied i need passuonate peple whp believ in teh happy ending story to be in my am , lind always tells me she came back througha dak wet cave and noone sck bne and hpower inside bnes inher now she can do fuck w=sewnst ive heard the orginbal “beaitufl: its a ful on bowie arrnamnebnt almos rock song but afterwhatehc been tgh i dont blame her one wht i just kno whe r rock n roll soln;acopf pretentiousness,. nd demand for honestnd demand fo rmmewk snemen 6 am i obviously filed oday bit tomorrow im hitting the guitar an dhe gohon=zoive posted pklenty fo ryll, i hoep teh my space people cone ove rco etheyre lovely and ic an answ rthier questions so much easier this way! in films as imve sai dim lit well nd in testino shots in lit well et aal, but im not trying in ny wy to be rving beauty, i jsut went in astarbeg oddyseey wich i shall undo until i look normal again, but he thin thing is fine as longa s my ss doesnt go flt nd it doesnt eeffct my face, nd also i actually really love hving long crne rms with thios elittle biceps woch will only get bigger the more i pkly rememebr as i didnt oplzya fuckong chord, they willlway suse ugly pap shots, i gott rememebr no matter how mabny there are 200 or so in that case theyre just waitingf or tht open mouth shot. t a uk ppar called the cily sport so lowend most of us dont even know it they hve two dwarves on permanaet staff top getteh crotch shots, my bopdy gird in London doeds Jordan i figuire d tht wa sthe guy for me and he puts vaseline in thier lenses an dthey boo at him. 6.9 hes god! i dont put asss in seats cos im fucking MODEL, i put asses in seats co si leave my guts in the stage, i heard as i blogged about the rilling stone review, sloppy complining about fart bnoises 1- its not a real review if it was itd be a big huge opage it was an online bot by somneone who took the sloppier parts and had an agenda and ttacking my voice in that sound system is just cheap cos my coivoice was in fine fettle. gee if i was neil yoiud say it ws great! zometiemn si loathe my own peers.

VAGUEISH DATE FOR LONDON MY BORTHDAY….ILLBE 28 AGAIN OR WHATEVER MY WAISTLINE IS MAYBVE ILLGE LUICKY AN D BE 25

god im on suc h a fuckingdeadlne here, i need majort infrastructure, and
major commitment as for look i must have my stylist an dthink of a
simpke easy ( simple alwyas best) not been done look- i may take a page
from madge and rip off some style and alter it, im at that age- butthe
skinny thing and getting ripped will help,the body tself as style.
sounds fuc king hopelessly narcisstistic i know bit it sMY body an dmy
anthropoligal experiment to get to a size four- that aintahppening by
march 1, but i think march 25 is realistic, if i up the cardio to 5
times a week. if my kid goes to boarding school in Vermont wich is her
backup plan if hse doesnt get into this shcool om thinking. get a hippy
house in vermont? isnthat eugene redux or have the 256 miles to nyc and
try that agian witha new loft and really make it beautiful and much
smaller and less ghrand but make it beautiful, just for her on wekends
and me, or a smaller plac ed on central park west, oarties were klame
tonight too many drunk people an di didnt go the hbo one cos i just dont
feel like going outthere til im target weight, i wentto freedom writers
for school reasons and c os my bff prodcued it, and a goodfriend
directed it and because i was ordxered to and billyw as going, so i
dressed MOM not anything else- it was hardly my night. juts had to make
a good impression in school folks boardings chool would kick my ass but
shes dead seriouys about getting into Yale. and becomong a director i
keep saying usc and nyu,,,,,,,,but she wants Yale and EN can help alt
with that. heartbreaking when your kid feels boardingschools okay, and
it isnt any diss of me its just this Yale obsession shes got, i onlyhave
her four more years, and w eopkab on living next door for a long time
even after marriage. she wants to be the first femnale to win the Oscar
for directing, and she bviously gets her ambition from somewhere, i want
her to be cuddly and 6 again, butshes 14 and brilliant, and due to thse
assholes independant- she actually thanked me for never doingd rugs inf
ront of her yesterday except thne once, she never saw or knew id get
htel rooms or got ot ny, i was reallyahppy she sai dthat, we were
talkingabout a certain diva who had smoked for 15 uyears and her
daughter FB ghas hung with and she thanked me for not fucking her up
“toobad”
my xmas present were teacups from tiffanys and the card said t”To joan ,
no wore hangers . Love christina”
i lovet he teacups and we save our tiffaby boxes. swe have a shrine her
room is tiffany blue.
yes mnaterliasm is lame but when youve been as broke as us you make up
fr it sometime ostentsaniusly, i hope not ina vulgar manner……..
loneliness thats whatthis record is about obsessiona ndfear of the dark.
it had to be invoked perfectly. by march 1.
clove